Suffering unbearable pain which torments my burdened heartache. As if I wasn't already in enough physical and emotional pain, why did you, my last friend (not family) have to tell me that I'm not good enough? How am I suddenly not important enough to even talk to? What changed from a week ago when you were telling me that you would do anything for me, where as now, you won't even pick up the phone? I am SO alone. I don't just "feel" this way. I AM this way. I AM SO ALONE.
I want comments. I need comments. I know that I have said not to leave comments before. But that's not exactly true. What I have actually said is that I don't like those fake comments that people naturally leave after reading a blog post as emotional as mine tend to be. I hate fraudulent people, particularly right after you have poured your heart and soul to them. But that does not mean that I don't need responses. That actually means I need responses more! I have next to no outlet to express my feelings. So I turn to my blog. Then after I make a post I check constantly to see if anyone has commented. But of course, no one does, because I asked fake people not to.
So, just to reiterate the questions I am asking. They are simple. There are only two of them. Why am I not good enough to be a part in your life anymore? What happened that suddenly made it okay for you to kick me in the butt?