Unfortunately, because of the accident I have a loss of words all too often. I don't have near the vocabulary I once had and although I feel it, I cannot express it. Even if I do find the words, sometimes I fear saying them because it makes me different and people don't like different. But this particular thing is something that I don't have words for, but my knowledge somehow needs to be known.
I could attempt to convince you how the Savior works in my life every single day, but truth of the matter is, I'm not quite so capable of that anymore, especially if you're not willing to hear it. I can tell you of the miracles He and His priesthood preformed on me. But once again, I stumble over my words, I get lost in my speech, and it doesn't really matter if you're not listening. I could tell you the peace He gives to me when nothing else can, I could tell you how I've had answers to prayers in some of the craziest ways. I could tell you how he has saved me when I've felt the weakest. I can tell you that He is my Savior, my Redeemer, my Brother and my Friend. But can I really tell you why? Not exactly, I just know.
Do I understand all of the details of the gospel of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints? No! But does it matter? No! Because I know that this is the absolute truest form of His existence, His ministry, and His gospel. I know that He directs this church as His one and only true church on the Earth today. I believe, trust and have faith in everything the prophets and apostles say. Why? I have felt it, I have lived it, I have witnessed the blessings, but in the end, I just know. Can I tell you how I know? Sure, I can try, I can tell you of how the gospel changes my life and makes me feel of value and worth, most importantly how it always gives me the feeling of being loved. But when it comes right down to it, can I intellectually teach you of eternal things? Absolutely not! I just know. It's why every individual must search for a testimony themselves.
Can I tell you how I know there is a God? Well, maybe, but not exactly. I don't imagine how anyone can think that this world could have been created without a God. I mean sure there's the philosophy of the Earth just colliding with other masses and stuff, but where did all of that come from? When you think about all of that, you end up thinking about eternal things and it doesn't make sense with our finite minds. 2 Nephi 2:13: "And if ye shall say there is no law, ye shall also say there is no sin. If ye shall say there is no sin, ye shall also say there is no righteousness. And if there be no righteousness there be no happiness. And if there be no righteousness nor happiness there be no punishment nor misery. And if these things are not there is no God. And if there is no God we are not, neither the earth; for there could have been no creation of things, neither to act nor to be acted upon; wherefore, all things must have vanished away." But either way, I just know. How do I know that He is a living being? There are plenty of revelations and scriptures that say it, but in the end, I just know.