Unfortunately, because of the
accident I have a loss of words all too often. I don't have near the vocabulary
I once had and although I feel it, I cannot express it. Even if I do find the
words, sometimes I fear saying them because it makes me different and people
don't like different. But this particular thing is something that I don't have
words for, but my knowledge somehow needs to be known.
I could attempt to convince you how the Savior works in my life every
single day, but truth of the matter is, I'm not quite so capable of that
anymore, especially if you're not willing to hear it. I can tell you of the
miracles He and His priesthood preformed on me. But once again, I stumble over
my words, I get lost in my speech, and it doesn't really matter if you're not
listening. I could tell you the peace He gives to me when nothing else can, I
could tell you how I've had answers to prayers in some of the craziest ways. I
could tell you how he has saved me when I've felt the weakest. I can tell you
that He is my Savior, my Redeemer, my Brother and my Friend. But can I really
tell you why? Not exactly, I just know.
Can I tell you how I know there is a
God? Well, maybe, but not exactly. I don't imagine how anyone can think that
this world could have been created without a God. I mean sure there's the
philosophy of the Earth just colliding with other masses and stuff, but where
did all of that come from? When you think about all of that, you end up
thinking about eternal things and it doesn't make sense with our finite minds.
2 Nephi 2:13: "And if ye shall say there is no law, ye shall
also say there is no sin. If ye shall say there is no sin, ye shall also say
there is no righteousness. And if there be no righteousness there be no
happiness. And if there be no righteousness nor happiness there be no
punishment nor misery. And if these things are not there is no God.
And if there is no God we are not, neither the earth; for there could have been
no creation of things, neither to act nor to be acted upon; wherefore, all
things must have vanished away." But either way, I just know. How do I
know that He is a living being? There are plenty of revelations and scriptures
that say it, but in the end, I just know.