The love that I have for others is out of this world. I love easily, whole-heartedly, unconditionally and forever. In Greek there are 8 words for different types of love. My default love is agape. (I'll talk about all the different kinds of love on a podcast episode!!) Agape is Christlike love, charity, for all our brothers and sisters throughout the world. Agape is selfless and unconditional. As I interact with people, I gain other forms of love as well, most commonly philia. Philia is commonly referred to as "brotherly love," or the bond between two great friends. The love I have for people I grow close to is deep and penetrates the soul. Growing up, I thought that everyone loved the same way I do. It wasn't until after the accident that I learned how wrong I was.
Because of my love, I forgive very easily and quickly. Because of this love, I still mourn for all of my "friends" who left me even after some were excruciatingly mean. Because of this love, I want everyone to know that they can always count on me. I hope for goodness for everyone - and it pains me more than anything when I can't even know how someone is doing. I cannot explain how much it would mean to me if anyone of the people I used to know would just send me a message or call me and give me a small life update. I don't even need to see you or become a part of your life again, I just have an immense amount of love and wishing for your wellbeing. (I really don't know how to make that make sense.)
When I get blocked from yet another life, it feels like a rejection of love. Not only their love for me, but mine for them. Unfortunately, my love canNOT turn off. This is not merely painful, but it also damages healing within the body. Connection is vital to healing, which is exacerbated by a brain injury, which is also exacerbated by the deep agape, extrovert personality that I embody. So please, accept my pleas for forgiveness and connection once more. Please, reach out and just tell me how you are. I love you, all of you (even those I don't know), in a very unique, unconditional kind of way.
