Tonyaisms, of course!

Dear Readers, I don't know what the last Tonyaism I put on the blog is. So I'm sorry if there are any repeats.Okay, here they are:

1. “Tonya, why are you so weird?” “Why not?”

2. We are sitting at kitchen counter finishing breakfast. Dad has finished our scripture time. Looking at the clock, we know we have to keep Tonya moving. So he says to her, "Tonya do you have your shoes on?" She says "no." I came back in the kitchen from the pantry and looked at Tonya's feet and her shoes are on. I said, "Tonya, your shoes are on! why did you say they weren't?" She looked up at me with this horrified look and then said to her Dad, "I lied. I am sorry Dad, I lied to you."

3. You can call me on my house phone that’s 801-XXX-XXXX or my cell phone, that’s 801……I don’t know

4. It’s like 1:30 in the morning, and Tonya had to get up to go to the bathroom, my dad is sitting in my room talking to me and she comes in, “Dad, I have a question for you.” My dad, thinking it was something really important responded, “Yes….?” “Who won?” “BYU” “Oh good.” Then she went right back to bed.

5. “I don’t know why I was errrrrrring.”

6. Tonya sneezed in the middle of church. Followed by HER saying “bless you.”

Sometimes, good things actually do happen

Okay, I know that there's a lot of things in my life that really have not been going so great right now. But, there are a few that have. And I figure, let's celebrate those, and live as much as we can in those moments rather than the nasty ones. So, here, I am writing to inform you all.

First, on Wednesday, there was one thing that was SO SUPER AWESOME that happened. So, my brother, Nate, saw on some billboard the other day that Brian Regan was coming to Salt Lake in January. Knowing that the tickets would sell fast, and remembering the promise he made to me when he talked to me on my birthday last year, I needed to call quickly. The promise he made was that the next time he came down around my hometown, he told me I could get backstage passes to go and meet him!! On the house!!!! Anyway, so smartest thing I ever did, was when I took down the number from which he called on, on my birthday. I called that number, and I started out by saying "Hi, I'm Shannon Blackham, the girl with the tbi, who Brian Regan called last year for my birthday..." And she practically interrupted me saying, "Oh yes, I remember you, I was actually going to call you today." !!!!!! See, my dad and I had sent him a letter a little while ago, saying thank you, and also giving him a bumper sticker that I made last Christmas that says, "Be Safe, Be Smart, WEAR A HELMET." She wanted to call me to tell me that he had gotten that, he was grateful, and he got it the exact day he was planning to go get bikes and helmets for his kids!! (Can you imagine being the cashier for BRIAN REGAN???) Anyway, so I started to mention that he was coming down this direction in concert fairly soon and once again, she stopped me by saying, "oh yes and I remember that we promised you and your family tickets" !!!!!! So anyway, she told me that she would email me and that I should get back to her with the number (relatively small) of tickets I would need. So, oh my gosh! First, I get to meet Brian Regan, my favorite guy in the world, up close and personal, like in person!!! And, second, he (or at least his secretary) remembered me! And third, he totally loves some of the stuff I'm doing! (i.e. the bumper sticker!!!)

Second, on Thursday, I had an interview with the best company in the world. (they really are a GREAT company, and they generally hire from within, so if you start at the bottom, it's easy to make it your career and become super important, like the CFO such as my bishop or something!) Nuskin. Best company ever. They have one of the top i don't know what its called, but where you have people working for the same company for basically forever, rates, they work in over 60 (I think) countries, etc. Anyway, BEST COMPANY EVER!!! So, I had an interview with them, and I thought it went really well, but I wasn't sure and I was scared to say anything because then the jinx monster would come and backfire me for it! :P lol.

Third, today I got a call, saying that they were offering me that job!!! WAHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I am SO excited. Oh, and also, their starting salary, for their like low job is, 10.25 an hour!! Boo Yah!!! Anyway, so I am starting up there ASAP!!! OMG SO EXCITED!!! I'll post more later if I think of anything else, but those were the two things I was OMG SO SUPER EXCITED about so I decided to put that on here!!

Brian Regan Concert!

Hi, so I will definitely update more about this later, but right now I'm in college and I have homework to do and crap like that.... But in the meantime, my mom told me to put this on here:

http://clicks1.musictoday.com/cts/click?q=1;114684;4BrYyQJ30KH723xqhpua0g%3D%3D

people, realizations, how God works, college life, etc

So, I decided I should update my blog more often, especially after my brother (Nate) showed me how to view the stats on the blog, which means I can see how many people check it!! Woo! That's exciting cause I really didn't think that anyone read any of my posts anymore.

So, let's get started with the updates, shall we? Why yes, yes we shall. Where should we start though? Let's start with some of my realizations, which goes right along with how God works. So, yesterday, I decided that I really just cannot do some things. Let me show you an email that I sent yesterday. It says : "I don't know, I just do. It's so terrible. This is just miserable! And you know what? I know I'm being stupid about it and I'm just not willing to see God's hand in my life, because He's constantly there and everything, but you know what else? I can't help it. I really can't. I try. I really do. I try my hardest (sometimes) to be positive, to see things in a better light, to look at all the ways that the Lord has blessed my life, but honestly, I just can't. I really, just cannot see all of the good that's happening to me when I feel like there is so much more bad. Like the fact that I can't walk around campus so I had to get a disability sticker doesn't make up for the fact that once in a while I'll find a parking spot close to the building I need to go to. you know? And I won't make any friends, all my roommates are, but i'm not. not because i don't try, just because i repel people." Anyway, I hope that explains what I'm trying to talk about, cause I really don't feel like writing it again in a different way or whatever. Basically what I'm saying is, that it doesn't matter how badly I want to change, I just can't. Just can't do it. Just another thing messed up in my brain...

Okay then let's talk about college life and people. I hate college. I recently decided that second to my 7 week stay in the hospital, this is my most undesired place to be. This is for many, many reasons. But one of which is people. I decided that people are stupid. There are a few exceptions to this label, but only for those of you who are mature, and real. I HATE people who are not either of those two. First, if people are so immature, and so involved in themselves, still believing that the world revolves solely around them, then they just find it a chore to be friends with someone who actually needs a friend. They don't want to give them anything, they just want to take everything. This is what I'm talking about. I absolutely HATE that. People like that make me want to puke. Then, the second thing, the second thing is when people are fake. When they pretend, when they are frauds, when they ACT like they care, but they don't. It bugs me so bad when people pretend like they're trying to understand, and then one day, you find out that it was all a lie. They don't really care at all. And they just try to pretend that they do so that they can make themselves look better. Well you know what? Doesn't really matter all that much, because in heaven, God knows your heart, And on Earth, if you get any praise or whatever, God has repercussions for that too. Sorry, if you can't tell, I'm a little (or a lot) agitated. But basically what I'm saying is that I really, really, really dislike people who are all a lie.

Anyway, I'm sorry for being so negative, that's another thing that I literally just CANNOT change. Just like how I can't see any good in a day (as mentioned above) I can't see anything good in anything really. Anyway, so sorry if this is a depressing and horrible post, but I'm real, and this is how I feel. And my mom may make me come back and change it later, when she reads it, but whatever. In the meantime, this is it. This is the story of my life.

-Shannon