Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Where Are You Now?


To my favorite teacher
Told me never give up
To my eigth grade crush 
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I miss
And the girls I list
Where are you now?
To my ex best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
And sing a longs in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
To my family who prayed without end
To the ones who watched
For every time that I twitched
Where are you now?

To my first boyfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last boyfriend
Sorry that I screwed up
To the ones I loved
But didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know I won't forget you

To the ones who cared
And who were there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the umpteen who'd swear
They'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

4 comments:

  1. Hey Shannon! Been a long time since I heard from you! :)

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  2. australia. I know I am lame for abandoning you but....wait....you know that I love you whether near or far. I love your poem. It is hard to see people come and go in our lives. There are people in my life that this poem has even made me think of and wondered if they have felt abandoned by me for one reason or another. Life is full of change and lessons learned. Some are great fun, some cut you to the very core and others pass you by without you even noticing.

    Some of us still stand by you and love you. It does not fix the hurt but maybe it can soften the blow a little sometimes.

    Smmoooochhh to you from down under!

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  3. Hi Shannon, I don't know, however I did see your comment on Health Care Talk our community on Google +. You must have Dr Nilsen in one of you circles to receive his posts. Our community revolves around Health Care...I spent an hour or more reading your blog. #1 both pictures of you are beautiful...cannot pick one over the other...same inner soul. I am a retired physician, and have treated many soldiers from Iraq and Afghanistan with TBI (traumatic brain injury) Years ago we did not understand it at all. Now we recognize it but still on working for a 'cure'. Your life is not over...you are in a new season of your life. Change is a constant through life.You have no idea if your life would have been better if you did not have the accident. Trust in the Lord....he watches over you always...he has a plan for you that you do not expect. Wake each day waiting for the message....you are not ready to hear it YET. Your former friends are still there but too involved with their own conflicts to give you the attention you deserve and need. Don't be so hard on yourself. 2. You have great writing skills, and apparently can go on for hours...some of those posts were very long and well thought out. Your cognitive powers are still very good. Hopefully you have a good neurologist and a psychiatrist who are trained in how the brain works. Stay around positive people ! Have you ever discussed your challenges with a friend and describe them....Tell Britanny she was lame ! but forgive her..she seems to really love you, indeed. I am old (68) but have seen more than I would have liked to. I survived by loving and caring for many people which took my mind off my own challenges. You sound like a very loving and caring woman, sensitive and able to describe your terrible feelings. You can help many others with TBIs and other brain injuries..You could help at a Veteran's Administration Hospital, start an advocacy group on Google Facebook or another social media website. I will be watching and praying for you Shannon.

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  4. OKAY, Gary. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT. YOU DO NOT KNOW WHO I AM OR WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH. Obviously you don't know my friends at all, because 1. my old "friends" do NOT give a rip about me, they are the ones that don't comment on my blog anymore 2. I LOVE Brittany to death, she has NEVER hurt me in any way, shape, or form. (She only said what she said because life took her to Australia.) Obviously people from "years ago" still do not "understand" any of it. Each individual that suffers a TBI (I know what that means thank you very much) goes through different struggles and different challenges in their own unique ways because they are separately unique. Even if the TBI is the exact same. I also don't appreciate you saying stuff like that "I could go on for hours," that "people are too involved with their own conflicts," or any belittling comments like that. How the heck can you even begin to think that you can tell me what to think, say or do when you have not been in my exact shoes? P.S. Dr. NILSSON gets so annoyed when people spell his name wrong. Oh, and google facebook is not a thing.

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