TBIgraine

 

My head was on fire all day yesterday. I say 'on fire' because there is no way to describe a "headache" after a traumatic brain injury. It is worse than a migraine, it is lightyears beyond someone's worst headache because it is a severely injured brain that is pulsing with pain. "The pain [from headaches] originates from the tissues and structures that surround the skull or the brain." Aka, headaches are not associated with the actual brain. Migraines on the other hand, (although the area between headaches and migraines is very grey in today's world) do stem from the brain according to most medical experts. They hypothesize that there is disruption in blood flow attacking neuronal pathways. I have decided that a TBI - migraine should just be called a "TBIgraine." 

With a traumatic brain injury, it doesn't matter where the pain initially originates, the pain quickly is dispersed and amplified throughout the entire brain, upper neck, and surrounding tissues, along with other symptoms associated with typical migraines. (For example, I get nauseous and vertigo.) I cannot explain how a post-traumatic-brain-ache feels. I cannot express how much pain I’m in when it’s happening.

           The other thing that does not help others comprehend the severity is how much pain tolerance I have grown into. The first few times I got one of these headaches, I was taken to the Emergency Room because I literally thought I could not make it through the next few hours. But having dealt with these for the last 10+ years, I’ve grown accustomed to the pain and I know what I have to do. I live with the ‘insufferable’ pain and I continue to “function” as much as I can. But believe me when I say that does NOT mean that you would ever want to feel this pain. 😊